b s bdae is coming . in a month time . and i am at a loss of what to get for him . b wanted a sony vaio laptop . and i told b , he have to wait for a long time , if he wanted a laptop from me . so , i told b , that if he wanted a gift from me , he have to decide what he wants before midnight today . it s not that i am not sincere in buying him a gift . but i don t want to waste my time and money , getting him something that he s rarely going to used and will not find it useful at all . just like those monthly gift that i gave to him . b has a bad habit . we fight , he throw the recent gift away . what a waste .

it have been such a long time , we last went out together . b has become such a workaholic this few months . in the end of the month , still he always have no money . hais . than work so hard for what ? . bwek . but i m glad he is back in his track , saving again . though , recently . so , i m seriously going to make b bring me out tomorrow .

and b s going to bring me out tomorrow . no plan yet . but i had this sudden crave to eat mee goreng tom yum at changi village . and sticky chewy candy at clarke quay . and fried mars bar from british takeaway . hehe . can i have it all tomorrow ? . hehe . last time , i could have it all . but now , no no no .

b have been good to me this few days . after the recent fought that we had . a big one indeed . pity my hands , stomach and neck from getting hurt yet again . b have been msging and calling me often . but i really wish , things will be just how it used to be . maybe it will , but it takes a long time . or maybe , it won t . i myself am not sure . it s alright . i m tired of hoping and dreaming so much . let s just wait and see .

and i can t wait to repaint my bedroom walls again . yeah . 2010 , it is yellow and orange . maybe 2011 will be pink and white . hehe . i m still deciding . what s up with me , and all those pinky colours this days . i m not sure either . maybe , it s just is my colours this days . and i ve got to set a date to paint . last year , it took three days . could i get it complete within a day and a half . yes . if i ve got a lot of people . i will get b to paint of course . and maybe , with his best friends to help too .

anyway , i ve got quite a lot of valentines present this year . a diamond ring , chocolate powder from coffee bean , zoo hp straps , red rose , frey dark chocolates . hehe . all this not from b . b got all jealous and emo when he saw all this . but still , what i love best is , the ipod shuffle with engraving and with lots of love from b . hehe . i wonder if the iphone4 , i could get it with engraving too . i could write my name . hehe .

got to have an early night . going to be along day tomorrow . hope everything goes well tomorrow . good fun and no fight . can b ? .

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