i have never felt so excited , when i woke up . maybe , it s because , i m suppose to go to school together with b . but , all of a sudden , i was told , that my class will start at a later time . b told me to just stay at home . i feel so guilty . so i told b , to wait up for me , while i faster get ready . i told him , that i could reached school earlier , and maybe , check on my project assignment , before i handed it in . but suddenly , i feel all down , when b says he wanted to go to school first , and by bike . i thought we have planned , that we are going to school together , and i will be fetching you at simei mrt , by train . i wonder , why , all of a sudden , you want to go by bike . didn t you tell me that you wanted to scrimp and save . so it will be only public transport . if you are late , i m understand . but it s still early . i , obviously , started to think negatively . it s not that i don t trust b . it s just that , i m very scared , that the past will happened again . it has happened once . it can happen for another time . hais . so i get all upset , and i didn t go to school at all .

sis wanted to go out . and because of what happened yesterday , obviously , i wouldn t want to stay at home , right . so , i decided to fetched b , at simei mrt . i try to put aside my hurtful feeling , though . if b wants to be the fire , i will be the water . guess , who i met , in the mrt , that bitch . i just hate seeing her face , or her name . but still , i couldn t help , but to mention her name towards b . the name , used to be b s favourite . she already got a boyfriend , yet , wants to get her hands on my boyfriend . boyfriend , also , being a guy , and being itchy , can entertained . bullshit . alright . calm down hani . it s 2011 . god s will , it won t happened again , alright .

b . i will buy the network card for psp go , again . and get kakak to help with it . but than , if still cannot , can i please sell the psp go . it will not fetched a good price , like you bought it for me . but than , i could get a normal psp , so that we could be able to play games together , like we used to . please . if you won t allow it , it s alright . what matters is , i did ask you for permission first . and one more thing , could i get the old money notes from you back . please b .

i m sorry best friend , i didn t went to meet you . till b knows everything about u , and met u , i won t go and meet you . b is everything to me . like i always say .

b . i know . you actually don t trust me at all . but , you have no reason , not to trust me . i didn t do anything wrong . but , trust me . my heart is only for you , b . it actually hurts me , that you don t trust me . but , it s alright . i understand , you are scared of losing me . but you didn t have any reasons , not to trust me , you know . love you badak . muah .